Why am I writing an entry about this? Basically so I actually do it. Day 1-lemon water is not gonna be fun..but once i can get some fruit in there it should be fine...after all... THE BERRIES ARE OUT IN FINLAND!!!! DELISH!!!!!!! also have i mentioned how much I looooove Finland in the summer?!??!? and lately ive been super into finnish music...well, finnish bands...Scandinavian bands...some are just so great. im thoroughly impressed. I went to a global music festival today with janneke where we ate nepalese and chinese food and walked through hundreds of market tents selling things from all over the world! There was even a Madagascar table!! awesome. and the sun just barely setting right now...at 1 am.....amazing. I love it here.
But I've just realized how absolutely USELESS I have been since i returned from madagascar. I WILL NOT make that mistake again next year. I have sooo much to accomplish in a few months...I cant believe this has creeped up on me so fast!!!!! AHHHH I still need to finish writing/submit a paper!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH running out of time......
and I had a nightmare last night that I got myself into a horrid situation and got fired big time infront of a bunch of people at a conference. im useless and so unaccomplished. no wonder ive been so depressed lately...a year has passed and I have NOTHING to show for it. and im getting OLD.
I just had to bitch.
the end. have a lovely day.